Week 1! Yes, I know it’s only been two days, but it is the end of the week, so I figured this was as good a place to start checking in with you all as any.
First, some unexpected good news that came just before Nanowrimo started! So I was out for the day with some friends and I was talking to them about how I wanted to take part in Nano again this year, and how I was really going to try my hardest to make it to the end for once. Now one of my friends asked what Nano was, and then suggested that she would like to take part in it too. Now, my friends are lovely people, very polite and kind ladies, so I just thought that she was being nice and encouraging me, and didn’t really mean it.
But of course I said how I thought that was a great idea and all that, because she’s such a creative thinker and I think she’d be a great writer…
And then, a couple of days later… I got a notice!
So that was a huge boost for me! Thanks for taking the leap with me, Icklespan, and I hope that everything goes well for you!
Anyway… you can’t go all of Nano by just making friends (although if you are giving Nano a try, do please take every opportunity to make friends! It makes the whole thing a lot easier and more fun, I promise!) Sooner or later… you need to do some writing!
So it wasn’t the smoothest of starts: I made the classic mistake of starting writing first thing on the first morning, I haven’t had my first cup of tea, I’m still waking up… And I wrote 740 words before I had to dash out for the bus!
Which is great! Such a good feeling as I got on the bus and went to work…
And then I made it to work, had my tea, got on with other things. And then in my break I pulled out what I’d written already, just flicking through it … and the number one thought in my head was, ‘What on earthhave I written here? What is this rubblish?’
Now… I’ll be honest, this is my normal response to rereading my own writing. This isn’t new. But there’s a flavour to hating your own work, you know? Sometimes you can feel it’s just the sense that you could, obviously, do better somehow. But sometimes it’s the creeping suspicion that you’ve made a wrong turning somewhere and you’re taking the wrong path…
And I thought about it all through the afternoon while I did a frankly ungodly amount of photocopying…
(Side Note: Does anyone else find that they have some of their best ideas while babysitting the photocopier for fear the wretched thing will jam up again? Just me? OK.)
Do I keep going, leave all my misgivings for the editing stage, just ignore them and push forwards? Or… Do I scrap the thing and start over, while it’s still the first day, while I have the most energy I’ll have all month for writing? Fix it while I still care?
I know, I know… but I really just couldn’t leave it and sometimes you just have to go with your instinct.
So I sat there with the old draft on one side of me, the detailed plan you’ve all seen before on the other and I started again from scratch, with a day’s worth of waking up and caffeine fuelling me! And I have to say that this was the right decision in the end. I’m not saying that the 2,993 words I wrote that night are the best ones ever. I’m not saying that they won’t need some heavy going-over later when November’s done. But I will say that they sparked a lot more interest and creativity in me than the first version did!
And as a bonus, I got my first Nano badge! Look, I went camping a lot as a kid, and my adult camp blanket is a monster of a thing. Basically, badges are very exciting for me!
Day 2 dawned in a shower of rain and gales, which is always a bad sign for me when I want to write, because for some reason it’s impossible to concentrate when the wind’s having more fun running around than I am.
Also? You know on the Nanowrimo website when they talk to you about prepping for the month and they don’t just mean plotting things out or making sure you have enough post-its? When they talk about getting in food and cleaning everything down nicely so you won’t be distracted? Yeah…
In my defence, that’s a lot easier to do when you’re not working full-time and also buried under various other extra-ciricular activities. So a big chunk of the day was spent doing three loads of washing, buying food, tackling the fearsome Mount Washing Up that has been judging me from the other side of the room…
Serious adulting was accomplished that day, friends!
Still fortunately I have Icklespan only a message away to remind me that we are both mostly evening writers and that the day being spent doing productive things that will help me avoid getting distracted later on is a good thing. Thanks Icklespan!
In the end I stayed up late and kept plugging away at the thing. It was slow going and I imagine that editing the thing will be a complete and vicious nightmare, but that’s a December problem right there! What matters here and now in November is that 2655 words were in fact written, and I have shouldered my way through most of the first chapter. Phew!
So today’s goals are to finish filling in the couple of small gaps left in Chapter 1 – little chunks of conversations which on rereading I realise should probably exist, that sort of thing – and either jumping into Chapter 2, which is an entirely different POV, or skipping it in favour of Chapter 3, which continues the POVs of Chapter 1.
So yes, this week has seen plenty of ups and downs already, but on the whole I think it’s gone pretty ok. Hopefully we can keep this up for the rest of the month!
Wish me (and Icklespan) luck!
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